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Hello lovely ladies,

it has been a rough rough road since my treatment ended september 16. i was mostly bedridden. i lost my epidermis in in the most sensitive areas down there.. and it was oozing and painful painful painful... words cant describe it.. i do not think i felt human ... anyway 10 days ago i got fever and was admitted in the local hospital with suspicion of a abcess which did not materialiaze. They made ct scan for that reason and 10 days post treatment my tumor has shrunk over 50 percent..  What does it mean? I dont know yet.. dr said it may continue shrinking or may not grow or may be a mass of dead inflamed cells.. That night i got GIANT allergic reaction all over my body. I was already in the hostpital, and was put in a general ward.. if you ever watched horror movies this was it... nurse told me int THIS hospital there is no doctor available at night as they are on call. the ONLY  doctor available is in th ER  .. i asked to call someone and she did not. She left me between the time of 11 pm to 4 am with allergic reaction and NO HELP WHATSOEVER.. I personally called an oncologist on call and he directed her what to do.. she put bendaryl iv and around 5 am i drifted to sleep exhausted in pain and itching... my daughter raised hell the next day and they moved me to oncology ward.. there is much more to say but other time.. it was horrible horrible horrible stay ... i stayed another 3 days on iv in oncology ward.. once i had no fever they let me go and continued orally cephalexin till yesterday. I am able to walk now  , not much, my raw skin i healing , chemoroids are still painful, but managable.. the only problem night time the rash appears again, and i have giant anxiety.Sleep is poor every night because of that.. i drift around 6 am... and sleep till 9. 

this is for now.. can not sit longer on the computer... may be tomorrow.. this was the hardest experience i ever had.. and who knows the future any way.. sometimes i worry a lot as this over 50 percent shrinkage is may be good or may be not as good... i dont know...

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Oh Eva, I’m so sorry - how awful! I know the tumor can continue to shrink for at least 6 months after the end of radiation, so hopefully that will be what happens for you. I’m glad your daughter was there to help advocate for you, it sounds like a complete nightmare. Do you have any painkillers? I hope you get some relief soon!
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Oh, Eva, what a horrible experience for you. I can attest, that once we survive this, we fear nothing! Your tumor continues to shrink, or as one of my docs explained, it is dead, it just doesn't know it yet. So don't stress about that, ok? They need to check your white cells, important for healing. Keep on with the sitz baths, or preferably, tub baths. Dry with a cool blow dryer. The worst is over. On to healing. Hugs to you, dear.
I am so glad to hear from you! I was very worried!
I hope you have soft fleece; I even used it like a diaper during the toughest time.
The radiation and chemo stay active in your system for about 6 months after treatment, therefor, continue to keep up good nutrition, while it continues to finish off the monster.
You've had terrible care, but, I hope there is some medical provider(s), that you can rely on.
I hope you continue to improve quicker now.
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My oh my, it has been a horror movie. It so horrible to experience such agony and yet not have a medical team proactively trying to resolve it. It sounds like anxiety meds might help (assuming you’re not already using them). They helped me sleep, too. Time will continue to bring you healing. Bedridden is no fun, but it’s part of healing, so don’t push yourself too hard. Thanks for sharing your update.
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I've been thinking of you and I kind of figured you were on the mend. You've definitely been through the wringer, the more extreme wringer for sure. I'm glad you are on the mend though, and I hope they have you on some good pain killers. Take it one day at a time. We're all here for you. xo Lisa.
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Eva, I know I felt like I would never feel better, but it did finally happen. You have been through a lot more than me in that your medical team seem to have somehow dropped the ball. Is there an ombudsman at the hospital that you can contact for help? Or a trusted member of your healthcare team, even your regular physician you can talk to about this? Seems like you really need better support than you have been getting. Please keep us posted.
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What a nightmare you've been through. The good news is your tumor should continue to shrink, as that's what dead cells do. It will take some time for your pain to resolve, so in the meantime, do all that is necessary to get relief. I am so glad you are home now, which is the best place for healing. Take care and rest up.
Nightmare doesn’t even begin to describe this sorry story! I cannot believe the callous treatment from the nurse. You must have got the nasty night nurse, not the nice one! Horrible experience all round. You have suffered more than most, but you are on the mend from now on. Honest. The vile dead tumor will continue to shrink in size as the radiation works on for some months post end of treatment time. We all know that you will recover, things should get better from now on. I wonder why you have the rash at night? Anything changing from you day routine that you can think of? If you have any strong pain relief - take them!! Let us know how you get on. Take heart
Just want to second all these are "Dancing with Ned (No Evidence of Disease) and just don't know it yet! The healing process is hard, maybe harder than the treatment, but you WILL get through it! HUGS
Thought of you a couple days ago. I’m glad you have surfaced .. a sign that healing is happening. Keep going warrior, the worst is behind you. 🙏🏼
Hi Eva. I worry about your sleep and anxiety level. May be your oncologist will prescribe something to you to easy your recovery time? Your experience is awful... How about your lymph nodes? Your PET scan showed two I guess. Are they gone? I hope you feel better. Hugs!
You could ask MD for something to help you sleep. I’m so sorry you’re having such a rough time.
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July 2, 2020


May 19, 1956

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Anal Cancer


June 30, 2020

3.1 - 4.0 cm

The disruption of what I perceived as normal. The Robber of joy and happiness,

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